Jenn pressed the last set of buttons before completing the recording session. Justin and her were becoming a lot more comfortable writing and making up beats. Justin assured Jenn that they would use the tracks at a later date. Jc sat on the couch outside the recording studio. Jenn wanted to get a feel of the Jive studio before she had to work with the artist that Jive had talked to her about. RJ had gone home after spending a great time hanging out with the guys. She was happy about the way things turned out between her OLD friend and her NEW ones. Even though Jenn never saw herself ever being star strucked she had to admit that the guys of Nsync were amazing. At least four of them were. Not that she didn't think Jc was amazing, she thought he was undiscribable, which was a new feeling all on it's own. She looked outside where he laid on the couch with his eyes closed and headphones on. He looked so peaceful and so vulnerable. If only he could stop doing things that made her have feelings she never had before and then totally flip to another dimension all by itself. Justin had walked into the room after he went to the bathroom unnoticed by Jenn.

"Hello? Jenn?" he said looking at her. "SPACE BALL!!!!" he finally yelled out.

"Oh hey Justin. I didn't hear you come in."

"Yeah, no kidding. You were in your own world. Anything we should discuss?" he asked with a small grin. He rested his face on her shoulder facing the direction she was dreamingly facing seconds ago.

"No, I do that sometimes I guess."

"So you stare at guys sleeping like that ALL the time?" he asked with a small chuckle as he lifted his head off her shoulder.

"Juls doesn't keep anything from you, does she?"

"Juls? What makes you bring her up? You're the one spacing out. ALL DAY if I may add." Justin said with a smile.

"Give me a break, Justin."

"So what's going on?"

"I just finished. The track is finished as far as I'm concerned. And the cd should be…" she was cut off in mid sentence when Justin looked at her and gave her a big smile.

"You know damn well I'm not talking about the track, Jenn. And you were right. Juls tells me EVERYTHING. Which by the way she told me about your little episode at the mall the other day. And I want to be THE first to see it again, if you know what I mean"

"First of all you are SICK and second of all, What did she tell you?"

"Oh I don't know. I just got the impression that there has been some serious lip locking around here lately. Am I right?"

"Serious lip locking? I doubt that very much, Justin. It was something that happened and I'm over it." she lied.

"Let me tell you something. If I may?"

"What?"

"Jc never and I repeat NEVER kisses someone for the hell of it. A kiss isn't casual to him. I know this because I've known him for a very long time. I do see that he hasn't been the same since this whole Bobbie thing." he suddenly got a face of disappointment. "But he wouldn't have kissed you if there wasn't something there. Now what is going on with you two?"

"If I knew I wouldn't be sitting here with you having this conversation. Let's just drop it, Justin. Please?"

"Look I don't want to interfere because I don't really know you. Give him a chance. He's hurting and I'm sure you can understand that."

"Let me guess? You want me to stay away from him?" she asked sarcastically.

"I wouldn't put it that way. You got to understand that we are worried about him. He's already been hurt enough. I know you have a good head on your shoulders and I have respect for you."

"But?" she asked. There was always a but.

"There is no but. You two are adults and one of you is one of my best friends. He's not even talking about his feelings with us and I think that getting involved with you or anyone at that, is very healthy."

"Justin, listen to me. I, Jenisse Logan, am not after your BEST friend. He kissed ME remember? I don't have a problem with Jc. HE has a problem with ME and to be honest, it's driving me CRAZY!!!" she said through gritted teeth.

"I understand. Look we are all having a hard time trying to get him to talk about his feelings. The moment either one of us mentions Bobbie, he flips out."

"How is that my fault?"

"I'm not saying it is, Jenn. Look, I'm going to be completely honest with you because if for Jc's benefit. I think you remind him of Bobbie."

"What?!! I know he said that when we first met but I'm not her."

"I know that. He knows that. But that's three years of his life down the drain with someone who ended up breaking his heart. Someone who has very similar characteristics that you have."

"I don't see it. I'm sorry Justin but I don't. Again, just drop it okay?" Jenn asked pleadingly. "Are we done here? I want to go home. The Jacuzzi is sounding very good right now."

"Whoa! Too much information. Juls can hear through my ears. Be careful." He said jokingly trying to lighten the mood. Jenn laughed as she colleted her things. She was instructed to leave everything on in the studio. They walked out of the room into the waiting area. Jc opened his eyes when he heard the two people walk in.

"Ready?" he asked quietly.

"Yeah, I need to stop at the grocery store. Are you coming over?" Justin asked his friend.

"I think I'm going home." Jc said getting up. He took his headphones off. And rolled the cord around the cd player which was set in off. Inside the control room a red light flashed, WAITING AREA AUDIO ON.
 

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December 2, 2002
(Los Angeles California)
Jc's California home

"Justin don't play with me. Open the DOOR!!" Juls yelled outside the bathroom door.

"I'm not cutting my hair J!!!" Justin yelled back out.

"I swear, if you don't let Trace do it. I will, so help me God."

"Look at it this way. Now you can have something to run your fingers through."

"Oh please!! Hey Trace how about taking five inches off MY hair!!" she yelled down the hall. Suddenly the door jerked open Justin stood there with a pair of sweat pants and a wifebeater on.

"You aren't cutting your hair, Juliana!!" he said menacingly.

"Oh really? Wanna bet?" Juls said walking away from him down the hallway.

     Jenn came out of the guest bedroom wearing a very similar ensemble as Justin, only exposing her new belly ring. They had arrived late the night before. She wasn't sure she should be there but after having Juliana beg her for an hour Jenn agreed to come along. Britney's birthday bash was that night and everyone had packed their bags in Orlando and flew to California for the event. She was turning twenty one and even MTV was making a big deal of it.

     She walked down the huge staircase where she heard voices laughing amongst themselves. Jc had been half decent considering he didn't really speak directly to her. He did tell Juliana that it would be alright if I came and stayed at his house.

     Downstairs were the same faces she'd seen the night before. There we sleeping bags and pillows everywhere and they all lounged around. She saw that Joey and his quote on quote friend Kelly were in the kitchen making breakfast. Trace sat on a chair facing the flat screen television located at the far end of the room with hair clippers in his hands. Chris and Dani were laying on the floor. Chris had his head on Danielle's belly as she played with his hair both watching TV. Lance sat with Laurie reading the paper. She would giggle when he pointed something out in the paper. Justin and Juliana ran around Lance and Laurie and then around Joey and Kelly. Juliana held a large pair of scissors in her hands and she laughed hysterically before darting past Jenn and up the stairs with Justin not far behind. The only person that Jenn didn't see was the owner of the mad house.

"Hey guys!!" Jenn said taking a seat next to Lance and Laurie.

"Good morning Jenn." Lance said with a smile. "Sleep well?"

"Yeah, thanks. I feel really guilty about taking the other room."

"Liar!!!" Chris yelled from the floor. Dani slapped him on the head and giggled.

"Alright so I don't feel THAT guilty about it." Jenn said with a laugh.

"Want some food Jenn?" Joey asked from behind the counter.

"No thanks. I'll take some coffee though."

"Coming right up." Kelly said with a smile. She was a really nice girl and Jenn could see Joey settling down with her. She walked around the corner and handed Jenn her cup of coffee and went back into the kitchen to join Joey.

     Jenn got up and walked to the sliding glass window. She looked outside to see Jc leaning on the railing looking out to the California coast. He wore a thin jacket and jogging pants. She looked around the room where everyone seemed to be doing their own individual things. She was going to say something but decided to just go out of the door. No one looked at her as she opened the door and walked outside. Once the door was closed behind her everyone looked at each other and shrugged.

"Nice view you have here." Jenn said leaning against the railing next to him. She looked straight ahead and didn't turn to face him.

"It's alright." he commented also not facing her.

     She figured no time was better than the present. She had been looking for a perfect opportunity and she learned that it wasn't going to happen. He kept avoiding her and the more he shut her out the more she felt like strangling him. Truth really was, that the more he pushed her away the closer she wanted to be.

"Why don't you like me, Jc?"

"What?" he asked turning his head to face her.

"Oh come on. You can't stand me all of a sudden and I can't figure out what I did that was soo wrong."

"Jenn I`m not in the mood to argue right now."

"Why would we be arguing? See, that's exactly what I mean. I barely know you and suddenly I piss you off to the point where you associate a simple question with an argument. What did I do?"

"YOU DIDN'T DO ANYTHING ALRIGHT!!!" he yelled back.

"Then why are you YELLING?" she yelled back.

"Look I don't have time for this." he said more calmed.

"You know what? The hell with you, I don't care anymore. You are a lonely man even though you are surrounded by MANY. It's not YOUR fault she went with someone else. Stop blaming YOURSELF for her actions!!!"

"STAY out of my business Jenn!! You don't know shit about me. " he snapped back.

"And you know why I don't know you? Because you act on things without thinking and then YOU, not ME, push people away. I just wanted to have a friendship with you and YOU ruined it. YOU were the one who kissed ME. Now, don't go acting like I'm meddling in your life when it was YOU who brought me into it in the first place."

"I didn't bring you into anything, Jenn."

"You didn't? Well hell I thought it was your tongue down my throat in that car. I could of sworn the words I wrote to a certain song were followed by yours. And I do remember a certain someone asking to kiss me AGAIN. Am I getting warm here? Tell me Jc, what did I do to YOU? Your highness."

"Look, it was nothing. It meant nothing."

"You know I told myself the same thing at first. But tell me Jc, what are WE doing right now? What are we doing HERE right now? What does this mean to YOU? Because I know what it means to me. And I have an sort of an idea what it means to you. But like you said I don't know YOU so I'm not too sure."

"What the hell do YOU think? Since you seem to KNOW me."

"You're scared." she simply said looking at him straight in the eyes. The blue that melted her heart and yet manage to keep her frozen in time.

"Of what?"

"I don't know Jc, you tell me."

"Why should I tell you what I'm feeling? Who are you to get anything out of me when my best friends can't do it."

"Because I'm feeling the same way. Only you are scared for the wrong reasons. I'm done with this conversation." Jenn said as she opened the glass door and stepped inside where everyone still remained in the same position she had left them. She walked past Justin and Juls, who were now sitting on the steps talking, and headed up to her room.

     Outside in the balcony Jc sat on the chair and covered his face and groaned. He didn't have control of his feelings anymore. Everything he'd work hard on, was gone. There he was at twenty-six and divorced. This wasn't how he'd planned his life to be. He certainly didn't expect someone like Jenn to come along. But something told him he would never regret the decision he made in that car that night.